Presentation

So my presentation is in about 7 hours.

It took me absolutely forever to get my poster board together and it looks so stupid.

I practiced it for my mom. "Stop saying um, stop it with the umms."

ughh shut up I know.

I'm not as nervous as I was like two days ago which is weird. I just wanna get it over with. You can expect rejoicing as soon as it's over. Bahhhh I'm tired.

arrgghhh

I AM SO MAD I MISSED BRITTANY DEGEORGE'S PRESENTATION TODAY!!!!!

I was so looking forward to hearing all about Harry Potter. ..and apparently masturbation/homosexuality [Angela, wtf?] lol.

Stupid goddamn motherfucking internship.

I'm a tad bit hype.

My presentation is on Thursday..

SO nervous.

Schooool

So, writing this thing in school, this is a first.  I'm so bored.  Now that the film festival is over things are gonna go back to being extra lazy cause no one has any drive to finish movies when they're not gonna be shown to anyone.  I just dearly hope that Kaufman doesn't try to start teaching again.   I think I hear him telling people to sit out there, oh god this is not good.  Maybe I'll just stay back here in the editing room a while and he won't notice I'm not there? Oh I hope I hope I hope.  Ahh I hear jingling keys No! Okay false alarm.  Just kidding not false alarm he's making us learn.  Oh god kill me I cannot sit through him talking about dumb boring stuff.  It's almost May! Gimme a break! And I have to go back to work today after not being there for like a week and a half.  I could not want to go less.  I can't wait til graduation cause I won't be working there anymore.  Dumb boring law firm. 

Whatever.  Yesterday was a lame day off.  I got up, chilled, voted, and watched movies and stuff.  It was pretty dumb.  Oh and I encountered my racist neighbor who when I told her I voted for Obama said "...oh...really?...well...I guess to each his own then...ehh.."  STFU racist biiitch.  And she used to babysit me too mehh.

So Angela's presentation is tomorrow [hey boo] haha I think it'll be cute and we'll be there awwing at ya and you'll be lovely =) I'm excited.  

Okay time to go learn new film things?  Ugh.  

Dream

I had the most bizarre dream last night. It was rather depressing.

My mom told me that my dad's death was a huge conspiracy. Everything about it was fake. She had gotten a fake dead body crafted for the wake and funeral, and had everyone believe he had truly died. She didn't want to tell my brother, myself, or anyone else that he really just wanted to leave us all. When I asked "well then, is he alive right now?" she replied with an "I don't even know, I figured if he was he would have come back at some point."

I remember in the dream so vividly feeling such a strange rush of emotions. I didn't know whether to be royally pissed that he chose to leave us and didn't actually die, or to be ecstatic that he was alive and try to find him. This would mean I could tell him how I'd been and he could get to know me as an actual adult with my own thoughts, opinions, and feelings instead of just a 9 year old girl when he last saw me, who barely had her own personality. He could hear about all of my accomplishments and future goals and maybe be proud.

I was so freaked out when I woke up. For a second, I forgot that it had just been a dream and I wanted to start trekking the world to find him.

In other news, I just got my financial aid packet from NYU. I'm really liking what I'm seeing.

I really wanna do something tonight but no idea what and no one to do it with.
Any takers?

internship

I do not want to go to my internship tomorrow at all.
It's probably the lamest internship ever and I would actually truly rather be in school.
Every week Alicia and I go there to sit, mess around with slides of flags on the computer and pretty much go crazy the whole time.
On another note, the art feast and film festival was Friday. Our little picnic after school/before the show was a lot of fun except for the unfortunate fact that my arms got sunburn. They were radiating heat pretty much all weekend.
The movies on Friday were absolutely terrible as predicted, except for a few. It seems, according to others, that mine was one of the few good ones. I was very happy about that since I put a lot of work into it. [thanks for the compliments guys] =)
This whole weekend was pretty blah though and tomorrow cause of this dumb thing I'm missing a test in Moon's that I'm gonna have to make up on Wednesday.
It's pretty cool/random that we have off for election day. I'm gonna be voting! Except Philadelphia clearly can't do math and sent me a letter Friday saying "Our records indicate you are not old enough to vote. You must be 18 by April 22, 2008 therefore you cannot vote in the primaries." And I was all "wtf suck my cock, I've been 18 since November." Yeahh

I completely don't fit in with my mom and my brother. They are so much alike, it's pretty weird. That's probably why they fight all the time. I miss mah daddy =(

Film Fest

Ughhh.

So I'm pretty much finished editing my movie for the film festival and I'm really frustrated.
Something just doesn't seem right about it.
And we couldn't really think of a title so I don't know if the one we settled on makes much sense.
I'm really proud of my cinematography and directing in this and glad I did it all on my own, but I'm still not entirely sure about the content. I really want people to think it's funny but I just don't know and it's making me crazy.
Fuck it. Whatever. It's definitely better than Big Lip Love.

I'm surprising myself with how well I'm doing writing entries in here. I'm not gonna get too hyped up though, cause it probably won't last. Blahblah.

I just got home. I spent from about 7:30pm-12:30am shooting my movie for the film festival. I'm actually really genuinely happy with the footage I got and now I have to log all of it onto my computer. We still have a bit to shoot tomorrow morning but if all goes well it should only take like 20 minutes tops. It's gonna be sooo tedious editing it all but I think it'll be fun at the same time. Please laugh when you see it at the film festival because it's supposed to be funny. Dear god I hope people think it's funny. haha. Really though.

Awww man. Okay come to the night of Art, Feast and Film. I think it should be a good time. But just so you know, there's probably gonna be some reaaaaaally terrible movies in it because we're lazy and we suck. Bleh.

Secret Agent Man

Even though I have about one reader if that [sup Angela] [[and airy?]] =D I'm still going to write in here regardless and try to keep this up at least for a little if I can manage.

So yesterday I went to hear the Secret Agent Man speak on behalf of Hillary Clinton during 7th and 8th. He was quite late which caused madness. I was really hoping for him to tell us top secret world affairs, but alas he did not. He pretty much just bragged on about how many "bloody hands" he's shaken and how he's known Al Gore for like 30 years and is bfffff with Hillary. Oh and he kept calling Republicans princes? Weird. He was a cocky sonuvabitch. Dr. J flipped a shit on this man as I'm sure many have heard by now. I've never seen him so angry. Actually, he really never gets angry. It was kind of scary but amazing and funny all at the same time. They did not take a liking to each other. So me and Sabrina had been singing "Secret Aaaagent Man, Secret Aaaaaagent Man" all before he came and crazily enough later last night when I was picking up pizzas for some event I was working at, the song was on in the restaurant. It made me laugh.

Anyways. Today was pretty pleasant. There were foreigners in our African American History class which was pretty cool except the lady from Brazil didn't have an accent at all. I was kind of disappointed. Ahhh Art, Film and Feast is way too soon for my liking. I'm being so lazy this year and have nothing finished so far and it's now in less than a week. I'm supposed to spend tomorrow filming, hopefully that will be a success.


Laaaaalalaa

So I'm jumping on the bandwagon getting one of these things.

I'm not entirely sure why I'm making one since I'm absolutely terrible at keeping an updated online-journal thing. But hey, I guess it's worth a shot.

School is driving me insane. I don't wanna do my senior exit presentation. It's going to be filled with nervousness and tons of umms. Blahhhh I just want to graduate.

Maaaaaaaaan I'm crushin.