Wow

I really suck at this.

I'm home and it's strange and I miss New York.

I also was much more attractive in the summer. Damn.

AHHHH

OBAMMAAAAAAAA!!!!!

I don't think I've ever been more happy to be a part of this country than I am now.  As cheesy as it sounds, this is a HUGE milestone and huge moment in history.  It's unbelievable.  Yesterday me and friends watched the election night in my room from 7-11pm nonstop and as soon as they announced his win, we ran out to the subway and went to Times Square.  It was beautiful and I'm so happy! And I didn't go to class today! Yay! haha. 

Things are going to be different now. I couldn't be happier.

Finally

Okay sorry for never really updating this thing.  It's so hard cause I'm constantly either doing homework or hangin/goin places so I never really have enough time.  I also find it difficult to remember all the interesting things I do to talk about here that are of interest.  Well my roommate is a big whore again, keeps on hookin up with boys even though she has a boyfriend.  Trashy, whatev.  I got DD drunk last weekend, it was baaaad. [DD drunk=depressed drunk].  Blah.  Well right now I'm in Boston visiting Margaret cause my weekends start at 11am on Thursdays and I have off Monday and Tuesday for Columbus Day/Fall Break.  My RA just texted me asking if I went home.  =D Man he needs to stop getting my hopes up like this.  Haha that's so not getting my hopes up that's just me being happy he noticed I wasn't there cause he probably wanted to hang out.  We're actually pretty good friends at this point and gossip/talk/hang out a bunch.  I know nothing will ever happen with him but I'm okay with it and getting over it cause I really like having him as a friend.  In other news, there's this kid Dean in two of my classes who I'm friends with and kinda crushin a bit, who knows we'll see what happens.  I'm really diggin Boston though, it's soooo ridiculously pretty here.  I mean I love going to school in New York but damn Boston is gorgeous.  Margaret's suite is frickin huuuuge and wonderful.  She's napping at the moment and so is her suitemate Mariella so I'm kinda just sitting here by myself on her lappy.  We may be going to some party tonight but who knows.  In other news, I will soon be seeing Equus in NYC with my friend Angela and perhaps some others.  For those of you that don't know, this means I will be seeing Harry Potter [Daniel Radcliffe]'s penis in the flesh.  

That is all.

COME VISIT ME EVERYONE!!!! <3

Gahhh

Sorry I haven't been updating pretty much at all.  I've been busybusybusy.  I ran for Public Relations Chair of my Hall Council.  I WON!!!! YAY!! Still want my RA so terribly oh god I can't even get started.  Break up with your girlfriend already Matt.  He so wants it.  Anyways I'll try to update more later! I had to delete my last post, I was too paranoid, and I like her a lot more now =D

NYC

I'm here, I love it.  So much has been happening and I have a new gay best friend whom I adore, James.  I will update more later but it's pretty wonderful so far =) So many dance parties, you can't even imagine.  Oh and my RA is gorgeous.  Damn him for having a girlfriend.   Yummzzzz

40 Minutes

In that amount of time I will be in the tightly packed van and on my way to NYC.  My stomach is in my throat and I feel like I'm gonna throw up.  I'm not so sure how ready I am anymore... I'm gonna miss everyone too much.  Come visit me soon!

6 Days

Man I'm starting to get kinda freaked out.  I mean I'm still so excited but I can't imagine being away from all my friends for so long.  Mehhh.  Oh well, this is not goodbye.  Ahhhh College. 

20 Days

Oh man I can't wait.  Philly is stale.  I'm so pumped to leave.  I will miss everyone terribly though.  But guess what! Next summer I'm staying an extra 6 weeks in NYC so that means tons of y'all visiting and partying it up with me, NYC style.  Yes.

Hmph

I love everyone.  It was so nice spending time with all the lovelies  at Paula's.  I had a really nice time and it definitely needs to happen again soon! I don't feel like going to work tonight bleahsaidjsdjhanl.  Anyways.  Paula just left, we saw Step Brothers last night.  It was funny, but ridiculous.  And as we're about to pull out of the Parking lot, this 12-year-old-looking boy says to me "Yo ..give me her number" about Paula.  It was amusing.  He followed up with "I'm so serious" We giggled.  Then we went to my house and watched BRING IT ON YEAHHH!!! Haha my summer has been the chillest ever.  Lalalaaa.    Likelikelikelike. 

Dark Knight

So Margaret, Molly and myself went to see the midnight showing of Batman Dark Knight.  I have no other words than it was just absolutely incredible/amazing/wonderful.  I can't believe such a talent as Heath Ledger is gone, he was unbelievable.  I can't get my head around it.  I was shaking.  He was the best anarchist ever.  No one could have done The Joker better.  Margaret and I were also interviewed by channel 3's news and sounded a bit like bumbling idiots, but hey it was 2:45am! Anyways, I definitely highly recommend it.  See it now!

Sleep

I can't get to fucking sleep.  I just got into this funk of depression where I couldn't stop crying for a while.  I miss my dad so much right now.   I can't stop thinking about him.  It kills me more and more each day that it keeps getting longer since he passed and I never really got to know him that well. 

Fuckin fuck Theresa shut up.  I just wanna cheer up and have a good summer and go to college.  I'm not even so sure about the college part anymore. 

Neighbor

So my neighbor passed away on Sunday and she's lived next door to me my entire life.  She would always have my house key copy when I forgot my own.  Anywho, today was her funeral mass.  For some reason I felt just numb.  I felt unaffected by it all.  The only time I teared up is when my mom mentioned my dad.  It was strange.  Oh and the Priest, hah.  I started imagining his former life and that he was a closeted gay who ran to join the priesthood because he was super Catholic and could resist temptation.  ...Or could he? (hello there little boy..)  Then he was trying to be a stand up comedian.  None of his jokes were funny in the least.  He'd tell a little joke, chuckle, no one else would laugh, but then finally ZING! He had ONE funny one.  But then I started thinking about how absurd religion is in general.  Just all the stupid little readings the priest would do from the Bible.  If any of them were true, 

I'd have one thing to say: Jesus was a cocky sonuvabitch. 

P.S.  My first day at the Penn Environment job was also my last. 

Saving The World!

So I start a new job tomorrow.  Or job training rather.  It's at Penn Environment which is an environmental office downtown and I'll be going door to door in the suburbs to try and get people to donate money to the fund to help rid global warming.  I really do wanna help the planet and global warming is one of the issues I feel most strongly about but I'm really dreading this because I know I'm gonna hate how time consuming it is.  I'm gonna be working Monday-Friday 2-10.  It is going to kill me.  I might just keep the job for like 3 weeks, all of July tops to make some good money and then I'm finito.  I just hate that I'm gonna be constantly exhausted and never available to hang out or do nice, exciting things like spend extended vacation time somewhere grand like Wildwood haha.  But blah.  I'm going to at least give it a chance.  Maybe I'll love it.  However, I really have my doubts. 

Oh yeah and I met Zena Grey today, the red head girl from Snow day and Max Keeble's Big Move and all.  She sat next to me at my mom's play and is the girlfriend of my mom's friend's son.   She's so tiny and skinny and like a year older than me but she was pretty nice and cool.  So random.

Done

It's all over.  It still hasn't completely hit me.  Oh god.

Graduation

Tomorrow.  It's finally about to be over.  I think I'm in disbelief.  It's not gonna hit me until I'm wearing that cap and gown tomorrow and walking down Merriam Theater's ridiculously steep aisle.  So weird.  Ahhhh. Let's hope I don't fall.  I can just see it now.

Promzzz

Prom started off pretty shitty and boring but then turned out to be lots of fun.

I danced all night and was kind of a camera whore cause Biando kept filming me.  He's creepy.  But I have to say, the highlight of my night was dancing with Kaufman.  He is truly hilarious and one of the things I will miss the most about CAPA.  Only two more days of bullshit stuff then it's graduation and I'm done! I'm an idiot though cause I got hired for a new job to help the environmet yayzzz but I go in for training the DAY AFTER graduation.  Dumb dumb Theresa.  I hope summer is good even with this incredibly time consuming job I have lined up. Blah.

It's too fucking hot

FUCK YALL SKINNY BITCHES.

I don't need that shit. 

The Bike Race

The bike race was all kindsa fun today but WAY TOO FUCKING HOT.  I really couldn't take it.  There were so many people walking in and out of my house and going to the keg my brother had out back so it was practically impossible to keep the house cool at all, even though the AC was on blast.  There were babies, drunks, and tons of people who ran in to use the bathroom.  Just like every year at the bike race.  I saw some random ass CAPA sophomores walk by my house.  And I tried and failed several times to just lay on top of the air vent to keep cool.  I got hit on by some drunkards walking up my hill and I almost passed out from the scorching heat.  I don't know why I let my friend kathleen talk me into walking up my dreaded hill.  The bike race would have been so much better if it wasn't so ungodly hot, but I still think it was the most fun I've had at one thus far.  Tomorrow is going to be 99 freaking degrees and I'm gonna go crazy.  Thank goodness CAPA is air conditioned like a mo-fo and we start graduation practice tomorrow. CRAZY! I can't believe it but I'm so ready to just graduate cause all my friends outside of CAPA have graduated already. Dumb public school schedule.  Whatever.  I think I'm gonna go get a freezing cold shower now, it's too fucking hot. 

Prom Thursday ahhhh.  I still need like everything aside from a dress. Gahh.  

School

School is so pointless.  The only reason I even came today is to not get points taken off for not being present for the "screening" of our film finals.  He actually liked our piece of shit thing we did in two days, so I guess that's really good.  Ugh.  The toga party was such a complete absolute failure.  I don't think I've ever been so miserable.  I actually ended up crying by the end of the night, it was sooo bad.  I think that toga parties only work when you're at college.  

So, you guys didn't miss anything special.  Except a crazy screaming fight.  Oh man never again.  

I am so not coming to school tomorrow. 

Dearest Lappy

So my mom decided to be supremely awesome and surprise me last night with my new Macbook laptop for college.  He is beautiful!!! He is just like Margaret's, except white.  We've decided they are in a gay biracial relationship.  They're gonna last, I can feel it.  It is so amazing I'm just chillin laying in my bed right now and typin away.  I love my mom so much right now.  I'm just sitting on the couch last night being a lazy bum and not studying for any of my finals and she comes down and says, "I was gonna wait til later for this but with your mouth..." and then I spotted him.  I started freaking out.  "No you DI'INT!!" And then I gave her the biggest hug ever.  She is the best. 

In other news, had three finals today.  Dunphy's was a piece of cake especially since he told us the essay questions ahead of time and I looked them up on sparknotes.  Tralala.  Moon's was a pain in the ass cause it was so long, but was easy for the most part.  Started our film final today too and shot all the footage so now just editing. My group is so stupid and Alicia and I already did all the work and it will probably continue to be that way. 

TOGA PARTY SATURDAY! Come, you won't regret it.  It's gonna be a lovely time and Margaret and I have compiled a pretty jammin mix of tunes.  

Hollaaa

Nosey

My nose= re-pierced. 

Great Success!

Everyone needs to come to the Toga Party the 31st!!!

I don't know how well you can see it. Lala

No Success

So this weekend was rather lovely for the most part.

Saturday night was spent painting with Margaret, Alicia, and Molly. I was so happy to finally use all those paints I have, it was fun. I just wish I was a better artist. I only did one painting and I got the idea from a google image. Haha, I'm unoriginal.




















The colors are a tad bit misrepresented, the lighting inside was not so good. Blahh.

So today I unsuccessfully tried to repierce my nose. I decided it's unwise to get it unprofessionally done. In the back seat of my car no less. Oh god I'm a moron. Well I'm just gonna keep the jewelry thing and get it pierced professionally [and much less painfully] and then won't have to pay for the stud and can just use mine. I really am stupid for trying to get that done jeez. My nose is now a bit red and very sore. I basically got a needle shoved in my nose and writhed in pain for a while while the piercer unsuccessfully tried to get the stud in my nose but it wouldn't work. Oh well. Who's up for coming with me for attempt numero dos?

Edit:
Here the color is a bit better on this.

So

I had a bit of a scare tonight. It came time to take my birth control pill at the regular time of 10pm and when I got my packet out to take it, the Friday one was missing. I didn't quite know what to do and was worried but took the Saturday one and had a full backup plan. [I was quite hype.] I thought fat chance at finding my lost pill but I'll give a looksy around when I get home. I get home hours later and lo and behold my little tiny pink pill sitting on the living room floor right near the couch. Amazing. All is well.

Oh, and stating the obvious but hey the hospital docs know their shit. Day three on my 5-day medication of prednisone and my legs are beautiful once again. Well, they're on their way, about 75% better. Hooray! And the past two and a half weeks of hell show just how much of a bad idea it is to climb a stone wall with tons of unsightly poison ivy at about 2:30 in the am. Blahhlaa. Someone wrote in my honesty box yesterday that I need to stop treating people like little kids? Oh? Sorry? Don't careeeee.

Almost two whole weeks on this diet. Jeesh am I looking any thinner? Dumb fat genes. Whatever I feel nicer and healthier. That's all that matters, right?

Bike flea market tomorrow! Yay!

Oh ER

I just love weeknight trips to the ER. My mom is hype and thought my poison ivy was something more serious cause it's all hard and swollen and hurts when I walk or move my legs. Cut to us in the Roxborough Memorial Hospital Emergency Room for two hours followed by another hour in the individual room waiting for the doctor then waiting for the doctor to figure out what I needed. He ended up prescribing me two different medications and I had to get a shot. =( It hurt. Didn't get home til like almost 11:30 and I'm pretty sure she's making me go to school tomorrow. Ugh. This week is not so nice.

edit: okay no school for me today. I woke up and could barely walk straight and almost fell over a couple times. "Go back to bed are you missing any tests?"
"No"
"okay"
so here I am. School is so pointless lately so I don't even feel like I'm missing anything. Yes.

Legs

Dearest Poison Ivy,

You are stupid.  I hate you.  You've lived on my legs and been painful/itchy for almost two weeks.

Please go away.

K thanks, 

 Theresa

party hardy hardy

I'd really like it if people weren't hype and didn't have such big mouths.  [Sabz you feel me, lol]

SABRINA'S PARTY SATURDAY OMG LOLZ!

I'm really excited.  I love parties like these like the way Airy's was cause I find myself having conversations with people in my grade and just from school in general who I have practically never talked to.  It unifies us as gheyyy as that sounds.  I like trying to get to know as many people in my grade as possible before graduation, even if graduation is only a month away.  AHHH one more month.  Thank jebus. 

So my presentation went fine yesterday.  Angela said it was good, and that's all the satisfaction I need ;) hey boo.

I'm just so glad it's OVER.  Hello graduation.

How much longer?

Presentation

So my presentation is in about 7 hours.

It took me absolutely forever to get my poster board together and it looks so stupid.

I practiced it for my mom. "Stop saying um, stop it with the umms."

ughh shut up I know.

I'm not as nervous as I was like two days ago which is weird. I just wanna get it over with. You can expect rejoicing as soon as it's over. Bahhhh I'm tired.

arrgghhh

I AM SO MAD I MISSED BRITTANY DEGEORGE'S PRESENTATION TODAY!!!!!

I was so looking forward to hearing all about Harry Potter. ..and apparently masturbation/homosexuality [Angela, wtf?] lol.

Stupid goddamn motherfucking internship.

I'm a tad bit hype.

My presentation is on Thursday..

SO nervous.

Schooool

So, writing this thing in school, this is a first.  I'm so bored.  Now that the film festival is over things are gonna go back to being extra lazy cause no one has any drive to finish movies when they're not gonna be shown to anyone.  I just dearly hope that Kaufman doesn't try to start teaching again.   I think I hear him telling people to sit out there, oh god this is not good.  Maybe I'll just stay back here in the editing room a while and he won't notice I'm not there? Oh I hope I hope I hope.  Ahh I hear jingling keys No! Okay false alarm.  Just kidding not false alarm he's making us learn.  Oh god kill me I cannot sit through him talking about dumb boring stuff.  It's almost May! Gimme a break! And I have to go back to work today after not being there for like a week and a half.  I could not want to go less.  I can't wait til graduation cause I won't be working there anymore.  Dumb boring law firm. 

Whatever.  Yesterday was a lame day off.  I got up, chilled, voted, and watched movies and stuff.  It was pretty dumb.  Oh and I encountered my racist neighbor who when I told her I voted for Obama said "...oh...really?...well...I guess to each his own then...ehh.."  STFU racist biiitch.  And she used to babysit me too mehh.

So Angela's presentation is tomorrow [hey boo] haha I think it'll be cute and we'll be there awwing at ya and you'll be lovely =) I'm excited.  

Okay time to go learn new film things?  Ugh.  

Dream

I had the most bizarre dream last night. It was rather depressing.

My mom told me that my dad's death was a huge conspiracy. Everything about it was fake. She had gotten a fake dead body crafted for the wake and funeral, and had everyone believe he had truly died. She didn't want to tell my brother, myself, or anyone else that he really just wanted to leave us all. When I asked "well then, is he alive right now?" she replied with an "I don't even know, I figured if he was he would have come back at some point."

I remember in the dream so vividly feeling such a strange rush of emotions. I didn't know whether to be royally pissed that he chose to leave us and didn't actually die, or to be ecstatic that he was alive and try to find him. This would mean I could tell him how I'd been and he could get to know me as an actual adult with my own thoughts, opinions, and feelings instead of just a 9 year old girl when he last saw me, who barely had her own personality. He could hear about all of my accomplishments and future goals and maybe be proud.

I was so freaked out when I woke up. For a second, I forgot that it had just been a dream and I wanted to start trekking the world to find him.

In other news, I just got my financial aid packet from NYU. I'm really liking what I'm seeing.

I really wanna do something tonight but no idea what and no one to do it with.
Any takers?

internship

I do not want to go to my internship tomorrow at all.
It's probably the lamest internship ever and I would actually truly rather be in school.
Every week Alicia and I go there to sit, mess around with slides of flags on the computer and pretty much go crazy the whole time.
On another note, the art feast and film festival was Friday. Our little picnic after school/before the show was a lot of fun except for the unfortunate fact that my arms got sunburn. They were radiating heat pretty much all weekend.
The movies on Friday were absolutely terrible as predicted, except for a few. It seems, according to others, that mine was one of the few good ones. I was very happy about that since I put a lot of work into it. [thanks for the compliments guys] =)
This whole weekend was pretty blah though and tomorrow cause of this dumb thing I'm missing a test in Moon's that I'm gonna have to make up on Wednesday.
It's pretty cool/random that we have off for election day. I'm gonna be voting! Except Philadelphia clearly can't do math and sent me a letter Friday saying "Our records indicate you are not old enough to vote. You must be 18 by April 22, 2008 therefore you cannot vote in the primaries." And I was all "wtf suck my cock, I've been 18 since November." Yeahh

I completely don't fit in with my mom and my brother. They are so much alike, it's pretty weird. That's probably why they fight all the time. I miss mah daddy =(

Film Fest

Ughhh.

So I'm pretty much finished editing my movie for the film festival and I'm really frustrated.
Something just doesn't seem right about it.
And we couldn't really think of a title so I don't know if the one we settled on makes much sense.
I'm really proud of my cinematography and directing in this and glad I did it all on my own, but I'm still not entirely sure about the content. I really want people to think it's funny but I just don't know and it's making me crazy.
Fuck it. Whatever. It's definitely better than Big Lip Love.

I'm surprising myself with how well I'm doing writing entries in here. I'm not gonna get too hyped up though, cause it probably won't last. Blahblah.

I just got home. I spent from about 7:30pm-12:30am shooting my movie for the film festival. I'm actually really genuinely happy with the footage I got and now I have to log all of it onto my computer. We still have a bit to shoot tomorrow morning but if all goes well it should only take like 20 minutes tops. It's gonna be sooo tedious editing it all but I think it'll be fun at the same time. Please laugh when you see it at the film festival because it's supposed to be funny. Dear god I hope people think it's funny. haha. Really though.

Awww man. Okay come to the night of Art, Feast and Film. I think it should be a good time. But just so you know, there's probably gonna be some reaaaaaally terrible movies in it because we're lazy and we suck. Bleh.

Secret Agent Man

Even though I have about one reader if that [sup Angela] [[and airy?]] =D I'm still going to write in here regardless and try to keep this up at least for a little if I can manage.

So yesterday I went to hear the Secret Agent Man speak on behalf of Hillary Clinton during 7th and 8th. He was quite late which caused madness. I was really hoping for him to tell us top secret world affairs, but alas he did not. He pretty much just bragged on about how many "bloody hands" he's shaken and how he's known Al Gore for like 30 years and is bfffff with Hillary. Oh and he kept calling Republicans princes? Weird. He was a cocky sonuvabitch. Dr. J flipped a shit on this man as I'm sure many have heard by now. I've never seen him so angry. Actually, he really never gets angry. It was kind of scary but amazing and funny all at the same time. They did not take a liking to each other. So me and Sabrina had been singing "Secret Aaaagent Man, Secret Aaaaaagent Man" all before he came and crazily enough later last night when I was picking up pizzas for some event I was working at, the song was on in the restaurant. It made me laugh.

Anyways. Today was pretty pleasant. There were foreigners in our African American History class which was pretty cool except the lady from Brazil didn't have an accent at all. I was kind of disappointed. Ahhh Art, Film and Feast is way too soon for my liking. I'm being so lazy this year and have nothing finished so far and it's now in less than a week. I'm supposed to spend tomorrow filming, hopefully that will be a success.


Laaaaalalaa

So I'm jumping on the bandwagon getting one of these things.

I'm not entirely sure why I'm making one since I'm absolutely terrible at keeping an updated online-journal thing. But hey, I guess it's worth a shot.

School is driving me insane. I don't wanna do my senior exit presentation. It's going to be filled with nervousness and tons of umms. Blahhhh I just want to graduate.

Maaaaaaaaan I'm crushin.